Yesterday was my first day out and about on my crutches since my foot surgery, and let me tell you, that was a workout of its own! I'm obviously not a small girl, and its a lot of work having to move around on crutches. I went to a doctors appointment and then ran a couple of errands and grabbed lunch with my sister.
After just that, today I am fully worn out and exhausted...I feel like I ran 5 miles! My arms and one good leg are very sore, and I'm beat.
Its a good feeling, and it assures me that I will likely not have to worry about gaining any weight while being redistricted off my foot, in fact I may lose some weight.
But it also make sme wonder how I am going to make it through the next 3 weeks :)
This is it - no more excuses.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
I have been struggling with my weight for too long. Four years ago, for my wedding, I lost 40lbs and looked great! It was a long and hard struggle, but I did it! Then I got pregnant, and well, my body sure likes to gain weight! I didn't change my eating habits while pregnant but I did give up my regular workouts in the first trimester. This ended up in a 60lb weight gain (yikes!) After losing the initial "baby" weight, it left me about 25lbs over my wedding weight.
Two and a half years of depression later, and I'm now sitting at my highest weight ever. Last I checked, I was 209.5lbs. Yuck. About a month ago I was at 215lb, and that is when I had my realization, that epiphany that made me see what I had become.
I'll never forget the day I went to get more pants. I only had one pair of pants that fit, so I went to Old Navy to get another pair. I ended up having to get a size 18, and I remember clearly holding up the pants in the change room and all I could think was "Damn - that's my butt!!" It was then I realized that I had changed into a fat girl :(
That day I started eating better and exercising regularly again, and I did lose 5.5lbs in a month. A great start, for sure! I have recently had a minor setback, bunion surgery on my right foot. I cannot put weight on it for another 3 weeks, and I am on crutches for mobility. However, once healed my doctor is confident that I will be able to start running again without the constant pain I was experiencing before. That is very exciting!!
I don't think this is too much of a set back though, I don't have much of an appetite since I'm not moving as much, and trying to move on crutches is a huge workout in itself. If anything, my weight should remain stable for the month.
I have also lined up other options for the month for myself. I will try to do light upper body exercises daily (focusing on different muscle groups each day) and I can work my abs too. I also have pilates videos that don't require any weight on my foot once the pulsing goes away and the swelling goes down.
Once my foot is healed, I have no excuses. I have a full gym in my basement (including a weight system, treadmill, recumbant bike and elliptical trainer). I have a full library of workout videos, and also some fun workout games (Wii Fit and Wii Active). The only thing stopping me is me.
I'm very excited to restart this journey in my life again. I am disappointed in myself for letting myself go and getting as far from my goal as I have. But what is important now is that I am making this change for the better and for myself. I also want my daughter to see a strong and fit mama, not an overweight and tired mama. That is very important to me.
I need to outline some goals too. My first mini goal is 199lbs by August 1. This gives me time to get off my crutches and moving again. My next goal is 175lbs by October 31. I would love to be 160 lbs by Christmas. My ultimate goal is 140lbs, and I would love to reach that by April 1, 2010. Yes, this is a bit of a strict timeline, but knowing me and my past, I need that strictness. I will have to focus and workout daily to meet my goals (with light days and hard days) and I will need to revamp my eating habits.
But I can and will do this!!!!
Two and a half years of depression later, and I'm now sitting at my highest weight ever. Last I checked, I was 209.5lbs. Yuck. About a month ago I was at 215lb, and that is when I had my realization, that epiphany that made me see what I had become.
I'll never forget the day I went to get more pants. I only had one pair of pants that fit, so I went to Old Navy to get another pair. I ended up having to get a size 18, and I remember clearly holding up the pants in the change room and all I could think was "Damn - that's my butt!!" It was then I realized that I had changed into a fat girl :(
That day I started eating better and exercising regularly again, and I did lose 5.5lbs in a month. A great start, for sure! I have recently had a minor setback, bunion surgery on my right foot. I cannot put weight on it for another 3 weeks, and I am on crutches for mobility. However, once healed my doctor is confident that I will be able to start running again without the constant pain I was experiencing before. That is very exciting!!
I don't think this is too much of a set back though, I don't have much of an appetite since I'm not moving as much, and trying to move on crutches is a huge workout in itself. If anything, my weight should remain stable for the month.
I have also lined up other options for the month for myself. I will try to do light upper body exercises daily (focusing on different muscle groups each day) and I can work my abs too. I also have pilates videos that don't require any weight on my foot once the pulsing goes away and the swelling goes down.
Once my foot is healed, I have no excuses. I have a full gym in my basement (including a weight system, treadmill, recumbant bike and elliptical trainer). I have a full library of workout videos, and also some fun workout games (Wii Fit and Wii Active). The only thing stopping me is me.
I'm very excited to restart this journey in my life again. I am disappointed in myself for letting myself go and getting as far from my goal as I have. But what is important now is that I am making this change for the better and for myself. I also want my daughter to see a strong and fit mama, not an overweight and tired mama. That is very important to me.
I need to outline some goals too. My first mini goal is 199lbs by August 1. This gives me time to get off my crutches and moving again. My next goal is 175lbs by October 31. I would love to be 160 lbs by Christmas. My ultimate goal is 140lbs, and I would love to reach that by April 1, 2010. Yes, this is a bit of a strict timeline, but knowing me and my past, I need that strictness. I will have to focus and workout daily to meet my goals (with light days and hard days) and I will need to revamp my eating habits.
But I can and will do this!!!!
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